Chasing Sunsets

We’ve lived here for a week. It feels like our house although it doesn’t yet feel like home.

Late last week it snowed. A lot. I watched it come down, my response to this first snowfall as a permanent resident of this winter town nothing less than total glee. I love snow like no one else I know.

deep-snow-backyard

I have two boys who have been sick on and off since we arrived (I suspect their tummies react to stress like my back does, which is to say angrily) and a dog who appears to be settling in all right, although for the first few days he was velcroed to us like a shadow, desperate to make sure he wasn’t left behind in this strange new place.

But he, too, likes the snow. We’ve been walking, up and down streets, exploring this strange new place. There are jack rabbits on the streets and at night they bound ahead of us, surprising me. I’m not used to them – deer yes, large rabbits no. Surely nothing with that much bounce and determination could be a bunny, I think, but they are, their ears and large hind legs coming clear under the street lights.

We’re the last community at the western-most edge of the city—the city limit sign is right around the corner—and when we head out from home it’s just a couple of turns and a short stretch of road before we get to the outer edge. That’s my favourite thing so far. We round a bend in the road and there before us are mountains as far as the eye can see – right to left, the whole horizon is filled with snow-covered crags. It’s as though you can see the whole of the Canadian Rockies right there outside our doorstep. My breath catches every time. I will never tire of it.

Tonight I was coming home from the grocery store at sunset and it looked like the mountains were on fire. Large swaths of pink and blue, with one peak a fiery gold. I chased the sunset – driving up and down streets looking for the best view. No photo I took did it justice. I could have stayed out there forever watching the sun rise and fall, rise and fall, leaving the mountains alight.

winter-sunset

We don’t yet have our stuff (though we bought a new bed, and thank goodness). Apparently the rest may arrive tomorrow and we’ll finally be able to settle in. I’ve been living on anxiety and adventure, swinging from one to the next like a monkey on a vine. I’m looking forward to less of the former and more of the latter. I’m looking forward to furniture and a shorter to-do-to-get-settled-in list. I’m looking forward to tromping through snow and chasing more sunsets.

Chasing sunsets is good for the soul.

 

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Where I’m From

I am from homemade Playdoh in blue and green, from the endless possibilities of Brio trains, and multi-coloured afghans hand knit with love.

I am from beach houses, suburban houses, and the house of many trees, each one a home complete with dogs and dance recitals.

I am from my mother’s mountain, a freshwater spring spilling on to the sand, and a John Denver soundtrack on long drives between the two.

I am from summers at the pool and advent calendars at Christmas, from Rileys and Birds and the traits of the Nelsons.

I am from Calvin and Hobbes quoted at the dinner table and laughing so hard milk comes out your nose.

From you have your mother’s eyes and I’m going to drive with my eyes closed so tell me if we’re going to hit something.

I am from a belief system that knows kids and clothes can be washed and that little girls are more valuable than family treasures accidentally broken.

I’m from a hospital nestled in the foothills, tourtière on Christmas Eve and school lunches that were the envy of classmates, they who wore kilts and blazers and heard pull your socks up and dangly earrings aren’t allowed. (I wore them anyway.)

From boats and salt water oceans, a mother’s hand warm from her tea, and the man who summoned emergency personnel with a practical joke, prompting a fondly-recalled story in the newspaper 25 years later.

I am from fat, brown photo albums, artwork and photos above computers  and a do-anything-for-you kind of love reflected in a lifetime of knowing what it is to have a family.

family photo of children playing in the sand

The beach house where the spring water flowed into the ocean. (That's me on the left. The 4th sibling came later.)

 

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And with sincere apologies to my mother if I’ve made her cry (again). 

First Day of Preschool

I thought I wouldn’t be emotional dropping Connor off for his first day of preschool, I really did. (You’d think I hadn’t met me, wouldn’t you? I’m a crier.)

Now, I’m not saying I did cry. But it’s possible I had something in my eye and had to sneak to the back of the classroom and go into the bathroom to get it out.

I blame the damn classroom, actually. It looked like a classroom. I was thinking he was just going to preschool, so what’s the big deal? It’s not any different than dino camp, right?

Right.

Except we got in there and it totally looked like a classroom and I realized my big little boy is going to school.

It didn’t help that he was nervous. We had some cuddles before the door opened and then when it did and all the kids started going inside, he wanted up. And I didn’t want to carry him into preschool. I thought for a minute we were going to have a meltdown right there outside the building, but I got smart. I convinced him to take my hand and give his other hand to Daddy. He went for it, so we all held hands and walked into preschool together.

It’s too bad that speck of dust got in my eye and I had to regroup in the bathroom.

first day of preschool

Official first day of preschool picture

 

with mom on the first day of school

With Mama

finished first day of preschool

After. (Apparently he was hungry.)

 

He had a great day, as I knew he would. This kid is made for preschool.

 

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Suicide Prevention and Blue Hair

A few weeks ago Cristi and Lizz and I were tweeting about Cristi’s commitment to dye her hair completely blue if she raised $1,500 for suicide prevention. If she didn’t get there, she said, she’d get blue streaks.

Blue streaks? Hey, that’s #54 on my life list! Before I knew it, Lizz and I had agreed to get blue streaks if Cristi reached her goal. (Don’t tell her, but I’d have done it whether she reached her goal or not.) Several others jumped on the Smurf train and agreed to go blue as well.

Well, she got there. And then some. She worked really hard, with a dedication that was incredible to watch. I’m so proud of what she’s done – not only the fundraising but the awareness for such an important cause.

I have been touched by suicide and I know how devastating it is for those left behind.

I also know what it feels like to be so clouded by depression that not living anymore seems like the only option.

There are always options. No one is alone. It’s okay to ask for help. I learned that when I reached my lowest point and I’m so glad I didn’t stay silent.

Life list or not, I was totally prepared to add some blue to my ‘do.

So yesterday, in three different cities, Cristi and Lizz and I went blue.

getting hair cut

The blue's in. Time to get rid of the mullet.

blue streaks in my hair!

Why yes, I do have blue hair.

 

blue streaked hair

See? Blue!

 

We #bluebloggers tweeted during the process, and knowing that two friends – people I’ve been lucky enough to meet in person – were doing the same thing at the same time for a good cause was totally inspiring.

Cristi – who looks great with totally blue hair – vlogged about it. Please go and visit her and tell her she’s awesome.

Lizz looks pretty great in blue herself, and she has posted something really brave in revealing her new streaks. Please go and love on her.

Huge thanks to everyone who supported Cristi’s fundraising. I’ve seen you step up and I love you for it.

Sincere thanks also to Sarah Rae at Studio 1284 here in Victoria for not only doing my hair but being excited about it (and charging me less because it’s for charity).

And, of course, thank you to Cristi for speaking out to stop suicide. I love you, my soul sister.

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I’m talking to YOU. #youarebeautiful #youareloved #youareNOTalone #StopSuicide

Photo Editing: Romantic Red Barns

I love driving along highways and seeing old barns. Farms are hard work, I know, but there’s something romantic about seeing a red barn standing strong in the middle of a field. Even – perhaps especially – if it’s run down. For that reason, this week’s photo for the edit me challenge really appeals to me.

Here’s the original:

old barn and silo

Here’s my edit:

edited photo of an old barn and silo

I didn’t do a whole lot to this. Using Pixelmator, I:

  • Cropped it.
  • Adjusted the exposure slightly.
  • Increased saturation just a little.
  • Did a colour balance – adjusted the colour towards red/green/blue to remove the hint of cyan/magenta hue that appeared once I’d increased the saturation.
I was tempted to make it sepia-coloured or black & white (see above re: romantic) but really wanted to show the weathering in the paint on the barn and the detail in the silo so I left it at that!

This post brought to you by my life list, #19: Really learn how to use a graphics editing program.