Break a Leg

Near the western edge of Calgary stands a legacy. From a distance you can easily see a tall tower, standing at the edge of a hill. Jutting out from it are several ramps, whose purpose the tower supports. The slope of the hill is dotted with Ts, row after row of them with a function that’s hard to discern from a distance. The entire hill is snow-covered, glistening white, especially at night when the lights flood the landscape making the whole place shine out across the city.

High atop the hill, a spot of colour on a stark background, stands a Canada flag.

Canada-Olympic-Park

Canada Olympic Park.

This park was the home of several events—bobsleigh, ski jumping, some skiing—during the 1988 Winter Olympics. It has always been there, visible from so many places in the city, yet I’d never been up there. Until yesterday.

As part of our explorations while we eagerly await winter, we ventured up to the park to watch a freestyle skiing competition. COP, as it’s affectionately known, is a popular destination for skiers who don’t want to head too far out of the city to get a few runs in. It’s a great place for lessons, or so my husband says, as this is where he learned to ski.

One of the first things I noticed at my new job was one of the digital signs in the building promoting a family ski night at the park in mid-January. “We should go!” I thought, and then thought better of it. I haven’t skied for years. Years. I dread to think what the experience would be like now. (Or maybe I just dread making a fool of myself in front of new co-workers.)

We’ve tossed around the idea of going. It’s cheap, so if I fall flat on my face I can always head inside and attempt to swallow my pride along with some hot chocolate and an apple turnover. It also seems like a good option for introducing Connor to skiing. But, oh lordy, it just seems like such an undertaking.

And then, Saturday afternoon. There we were, all three of us out together walking the dog. We crossed the field near our house, dodging stubborn chunks of snow determined to last until the next snowfall. I chased Connor, then raced him, several times over, to toddler-selected finish lines. The air was brisk – refreshing but not finger-freezing cold. It felt…alive. Vibrant.

Unprompted, my husband brought up the ski night. He seemed hesitant, just as I had been. But then my word for the year came back to me.

We could choose not to go, I said, and say we’ll do it another time. But when? We could easily end up living here for years, never doing any of the things I’m looking forward to so much. Shouldn’t we go now, when the opportunity is there, accessible and inexpensive?

So we’re going.

Wish me luck. Or, at the very least, that I don’t break a leg.

Waiting for Winter

Moving from the mild west coast, we had braced ourselves for the reality of a harsh Canadian winter on the prairies.

Not so much, as it turns out.

At least not so far, anyway. It snowed shortly after we moved, which made for lovely winter walks, but it hasn’t snowed since and it hasn’t even been especially cold.

Everyone keeps commenting on how nice Mother Nature has been to us so far, and I do appreciate it. But I’m secretly a little bit disappointed. I love snow, and I’m perfectly prepared for it to get cold. Plus I’ve got a long list of things I want to do, and many of them are classic winter activities.

There’s still snow on the ground (in some places, anyway) and the local ski hill has been doing a good job making their own. We ventured up there today (more on that tomorrow) and then, with the spirit of adventure and wanting to explore some more, went down to the lagoon to watch people skating.

Apparently it’s just cold enough to keep the lagoon frozen, though it was definitely getting damp in certain areas. We walked around on the ice and watched others skate, gathering once in a while around the fire pits to warm up or drink a warm drink. Music rang out from speakers in the park, and overall it was a perfectly lovely way to spend an afternoon.

Harsh cold or not, we’ll be back with skates in hand.

skating-on-the-lagoon

Looking Forward


Our list of planned adventures for
this year feels endless, in the
most beautiful way. We’re going to
skate
ski
snowshoe
drive
explore
travel
and that is just for starters.

mountain_snow_laszlo

Image credit: laszlo-photo on Flickr

We’ll spend time at the zoo.
We’ll visit dusty, old dinosaur bones.
And venture out to the mountains.

Maybe even a dog sled tour.
(You think the 3-year-old will last?)

Favourite little mountain towns await us,
And I know how it’ll go.
We’ll plan all our weekend adventures,
And 2012 will go by too fast.

But that’s what life is about.

 

I haven’t participated in Six Word Friday for a while and when I saw this week’s theme (“looking forward”) I thought it was a great chance to share my excitement over the things we have planned for the year. 

P.S. Thanks for your ideas and inspiration on yesterday’s one word post. I think my word has found me. I’m going to let it sit for a bit, but I think I’ve got it, and it’s very relevant to the above and all the things we want to do and explore in our new ‘hood.

Cars In Crayon Colours

Impromptu outings for ice cream on a summer evening are especially fun when you come across a parking lot full of classic cars like we did on Saturday night.

Each was polished and buffed, reflecting dazzling sunlight off hoods and windows.

The cars were the colour of crayons.

Razzmatazz

Cosmic cobalt

hot rod wheel well

Sea green

apple-green hot rod

Desert Sand

white classic Ford hot rod

Outer Space

Ford Model T

Mango Tango

classic red Mustang with fuzzy dice

Midnight Pearl

Ford Model T

Magic Mint

classic Edel engine

With gleaming interiors of Leather Jacket and Onyx and shiny Sonic Silver

steering wheel of a classic hot rod

They were all delicious. (And I’m not even a car guy girl.*)

 

iPhone Photo Phun

*In fact, I’m so not into cars that I don’t even know what most of these are called. So much for good SEO. 

All photos were taken with my husband’s iPhone, which I stole. Except he made me give it back. (Editing done in Lightroom.)

Hello, Inspiration – The Matter of Motherhood

Saturday. I am at home alone with my son for the day, for the first time in weeks. Months? A long time. For the first time since the day that precipitated this and this.

This is significant. How the day turns out matters – not just because I don’t want to have a bad day. It’s so much bigger than that.

***

We had friends over to play this morning – a girl Connor’s age who he’s known since he was weeks old. She is quiet and focused. He, generally, is not. Today he was buzzing, like a balloon you’ve blown up but not tied off so that when you let it go it flies everywhere, impossible to catch and making that pppbbbbttttpppphhhh noise as it releases all the energy inside.

A small part of me thought, really, Universe? Today? You couldn’t ease me back in?

It was not to be.

He only napped for 45 minutes, then got up and commenced whining and falling over on the floor.

I took him out of the house, because I knew I wouldn’t be able to manage at home all afternoon with him like that. It was a risk. I’ve done it before on rough days and had it blow up, quite spectacularly, in my face.

He wasn’t a whole lot better out in public but bribes for toddlers work wonders, though not magic. We still had meltdowns, throwing things, attempts to break things and running away in a store where I had to leave my wallet at the counter to chase him down.

But you know what? We made it. I talked. I redirected. I negotiated. I used positive reinforcement and when that didn’t work I took his new truck away. He got the message and we got home without anyone getting an arm ripped off.

I did it. And what I did today will help me do so much more.

***

Show me something I’ve never seen before; a treasured photograph of your grandparents or a handkerchief your father wore in his lapel.

Take me somewhere I’ve never been; a place where the land meets the sea, the breeze is cool and your mind calms.

Sing me the same soothing lullaby night after night; the one that helps ease my fears and dream vividly.

Let me make mistakes and learn as I go, no matter how difficult it may be for you to witness.

Guide me through life as though you were my tour guide, exposing me to places near and far but always emphasizing the importance of home.

Show me something I’ve never seen before, mom.

***

As a mother, my job is to take care of my son. To feed him. To comfort him. To love him.

But my job is also to teach him about the world and to introduce him to new things and new experiences. To help him develop the skills to interact appropriately with others. To teach him patience and respect and kindness.

My job is to help him make sense of the world so he can grow up to be the sort of person who helps the world make sense.

In the past I’ve had trouble doing that. At times it’s taken every ounce of energy I have. Some days I’ve felt like I’m faking it.

I’m going to have bad days. We all are. But for me there’s a difference between a normal bad day and a day where I drown in motherhood and forget that every parent has a bad day now and then and it’s not just me and it’s not because I can’t do it.

Yesterday was not a bad day. It was frustrating at times and tiring, apparently, because I lay down for a few minutes at 5:00 and slept, not hearing anything including my husband telling me dinner was ready, until 7.

Yesterday was a good day. And as I sat in the evening quiet, I read a really beautiful post by Tonya from Letters for Lucas. The italicized section above is excerpts from that post and Tonya kindly agreed to let me use them. I encourage you to go and read the whole thing. I guarantee it will inspire you. It inspired me, because it sums up exactly why finding my ability to be a mother matters.