Once Upon a Christmas

Hundreds of years ago life was different—simpler—and I feel it as we walk through the square. Beyond the gates, the snow crunches beneath our feet. The air is crisp, and we quickly pull on hats and gloves.

It’s quiet – quietly festive, that is. People mill around looking at garlands and holly and bright red bows outside the town halls, the general store, the old schoolhouse. Dodging horses they wander, skating on the snow in a roundabout pursuit of milky hot chocolate or crisp hot apple cider. The wagons drive past, the horses beautiful and proud, the passengers cuddled beneath woollen blankets as they breathe in the sweet smell of hay.

Coming to Heritage Park was on my list of must-do things before Christmas, and it didn’t disappoint.

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The bright green trim on the door of the old house pops, making the weathered white fade into the background.

 

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The old schoolhouse stands ready, its path cleared, waiting for students to skip in from the cold.

 

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The red town hall is festive all year round.

 

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“Beware,” the railway crossing sign says with specific politeness.

 

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Home for the holidays? I wish. (How retro that would be.)

 

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The lamppost cheerfully lights people’s way.

 

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The main street offers anything you might need.

 

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High on the hill, a long-retired windmill stands strong and tall.


In my world, it doesn’t take much to make magic at Christmas.

Merry Christmas, everyone. May you find some magic too.
~ Robin 

Birthday Reflections

One year ago I turned 36. 355 days ago I started this blog.

On neither of those days did I have any idea what the upcoming year would bring.

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Sometime last year I developed a 7-year plan. At some point this year it went completely out the window.

It’s not that those goals aren’t important to me, but that plan was focused on one specific thing: moving overseas to work for an international company. In some ways the events of the last year derailed the timing of that 7-year plan (because it included kids being a certain age, and because of the struggles of this last year the second hypothetical child hasn’t even been shipped yet).

We all know we can dream up all the timelines we want, but that’s just not how life works. In any case, it’s not just the timing. It’s that I have learned there’s more out there than one grand adventure. (And while I have a new job—that I love, even if I’m only on day 3—I’m about 60% less motivated by work than I was at this time last year.) I’d still love to do that someday, don’t get me wrong, but this last year stopped me, spun me around, and shoved me down another path.

And here I am, a year later, standing on that path looking at snow and sunsets and thinking thank God.

One thing is for sure: I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be.

Today* is my 37th birthday and I’m not even going to try to plan where I’m going in the coming year. I’m just going to enjoy the ride.

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*Wednesday that is. “Today” in blogging time. 

I also got a wonderful birthday present from Katherine at Postpartum Progress (even though she didn’t know it was my birthday). I’m incredibly honoured to be included on this list of The Top 20 Writers on Postpartum Depression in 2011.

Link-up: Farewell to 2011 in photos

How would you describe 2011 in words? It’s hard for me to pick just one.

Enlightening.

Frightening. 

Joyous. 

Anxiety-ridden. 

Unexpected.

Life-changing. 

2011 included my worst personal experience to date.

It included one of my best personal experiences to date.

It was the year I went public with my experience with PPD.

It was the year I started this blog (almost exactly one year ago, in fact).

2011 was the year I took 4 1/2 months off work and saw a psychiatrist and was significantly medicated. It was the year I quit the job I used to love and moved with my family away from the city I grew up in. It was the year I learned to call myself a writer.

All those things are so indescribably unexpected. A year ago I had no idea I would be where I am today. NO idea. And I couldn’t be more grateful – for all of it.

But while those are the things I will remember most about this year, there are lots of other things that happened too and together they make up what 2011 was about for me. All those big things are captured on this blog, but only some of the small things are. And they should have a place here too, don’t you think?

So here’s what I’m going to do: After Christmas, I’m going to put together a post that includes a photo to represent each month of the year. It might depict something big, and it might be something small that I just want to remember. I’ll post it and include a linky and anyone who wants to play along is welcome to link up.

And…there’s a prize.

One winner will be randomly chosen from those who link up to receive a complimentary registration in the Brave Girls Club’s Soul Restoration I class.

This class is described as an “enjoyable and powerful workshop…designed to help you really really think and hear your own soul again…to help you remember what brings you the most joy, to realize & remember all of the things that you are good at and that make your heart sing…to get back on track and to unleash the courage and motivation to stay on track….to reunite with your soul.”

Brave Girls ClubA perfect way to start 2012, I would say.

So enjoy the festivities, however you celebrate, and then reflect on the last year, choose some photos and join in. The link-up will be open from Dec. 26 to Jan. 2, and a winner will be randomly chosen on Jan. 3.

Happy reflecting.

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Does this count as lying to Santa?

“Have you been good this year?”

“Yes.”

[I suppose in the grand sense of the word he’s been good. Sometimes he’s very good. Sometimes he’s three.]

“Do you listen to your mommy and daddy?”

“Yes.”

[I think my kid just lied to Santa. Well, fine, it wasn’t really a fair question. He listens to daddy but does NOT listen to mommy, so I guess he didn’t know which answer to choose. Is answering ‘yes’ like rounding up?]

Overall, a very good visit with Santa. Except for the part where he tried to wipe his candy cane mouth on my sweater. (My kid, that is, not Santa.)

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Review of Purple Leaves, Red Cherries

Some things capture you from the very first. That was Purple Leaves, Red Cherries for me.

“How long does it take, being a mom? When is my shift over?”

A couple of months ago, some of the Just.Be.Enough team members had a chance to get a copy of this book to read (and their posts inspired by the book went up on the site last week). I bowed out because I got to participate in the Striiv challenge, but I did get a PDF copy of the book. One look and I knew I needed to read it in its intended format, so I bought the Kindle edition. This book is stunning.

InSanity by Nomi Melul Ohad

“[In]Sanity” by Nomi Melul Ohad, first published in the book Purple Leaves, Red Cherries.

In the introduction, author Tania Elfersy describes coming up with the idea for the book: “So I got to thinking, mostly in the shower – my “room of one’s own” (where else do I get a peaceful moment by myself?)…” Oh yeah, I thought, this is an author (and mother) who gets it.

One of my rants about motherhood is that we don’t talk enough about what it’s really like. When I first became a mother I thought I was the only one who found it so hard, and I wish I’d had this book then.

“Why did it never occur to me that I could actually put down my baby and go to the bathroom?”

I dove into this book without really knowing what to expect, and I loved it so much I read it in one sitting. It contains several different categories of stories by real moms and each story is short. Really short, which makes it so easy to read (especially for tired moms who don’t get through more than a few sentences of a book before falling asleep at night). The categories demonstrate the complexity of motherhood, and the organization of the book makes it easy to go back and read something related to your own struggle and realize you’re not so alone.

“Who I Was, Who I Am” includes stories of women’s identities before and after children – one of my favourite topics.

“Love” is both heartbreaking and beautiful in its stories of mothers’ love for their children.

“Difficult Days” hit me right in the gut. Those could have been my stories.

They even tackled sex.

“But the thought of it. It’s so exhausting. I want a cup of tea, damn it!”

And the artwork is totally captivating. It gives the book a personality. It makes it sing.

Boundaries and Balance by Nomi Melul Ohad

“Boundaries and Balance” by Nomi Melul Ohad, first published in the book
Purple Leaves, Red Cherries.

Sprinkled throughout the stories in the book—amid the admissions of tiredness and difficult days—is the one almost universal truth about motherhood: There’s nothing else in the world like it.

“..the incomparable, heart-stopping joy of then and now and always being my daughter’s mother.”

Trust me, you should read this. You’ll be glad you did.

(All quotes are from the book.)

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Purple Leaves, Red Cherries is available in hardcover on Amazon, and for a limited time the Kindle edition is only $0.99!

To share some of this beauty with you (and with thanks to Tania Elfersy) I’m giving away a Purple Leaves, Red Cherries poster. One winner will receive a 24″x16″poster on semi-gloss poster paper, valued at US$21.70.(Visit the book’s website to see poster designs.)

Giveaway is open to US, Canada, Australia and the UK. (Poster sizes may vary to meet the country standards.) Closes at midnight on Dec. 21 (which is my birthday – just sayin’) after which one winner will be selected through Rafflecopter.

Note: I was not compensated to write this review and I bought the Kindle edition with my own dollar. I just really like this book. After getting to know Tania a bit through her blog and on Twitter I really like her too and am happy to help her promote this wonderful (self-published!) book. Which is to say: All opinions are my own.

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